If we ever meet again

After 6 months of tenure at AIA, I'm saying goodbye to it. I'm leaving all my lovely colleague with a heavy heart especially my 4 wonderful colleagues, Charlene,Kak Joelia, Nazliah and Hazizee. Gonna misses all those laughter, gossiping and 'makan-makan' I had with them. This is my 1st job and it inspires me a lot.

Charlene is a lady sitting besides me. Lengzai is always her 1st priority. Haha. You can see her wondering for 'lengzai' while going out with her. She is also passionate for food. Always treat us eat all those delicious food. Gonna miss it. *Wink* In short, it a great colleague. She always bring laughter to all her friends.



Another person I would like to express my graditute is my supervisor, Kak Joelia who is also my mentor. She is a responsible and cheerful supervisor. She always giving me advise and forgave all the mistakes I've made.



Finally, the last 2 persons who always makes me laugh are Nazliah and Hazizee. Although we just known each other for a short period, we get along very well. We share a lot of things. I was so touch with the present they gave me. It's the best present I have ever receive. A meaningful present. It's a photo frame of them. I think this is the best present to give someone. I'm gonna miss them very much. There are the best Malay friends I ever had. They inspires me a lot. Sometimes, Malay are more united than Chinese. They are always lending a helping to each other unlike Chinese who are too much of a "Kiasu" which means scared to lose. That's why sometimes I feel more comfortable to be with people of different races. Thank you so much my lovely friends.

The "Spot"

I'm so unhappy today. For the first time, I fail my final exam. I can't accept the fact. All this years of university life, I never have to sit for supplementary (SUPP) exam and I won't let myself to get one. Unfortunately, not this time. I can't forgive the careless mistakes that I've made in the exam. The exam wasn't hard actually. I just don't know what's going into me that day. Even the toughest subject which programming ( when I was in Year 1 Sem 1 ), I had managed to pass it. But, why can't life contingencies?! Am I really that careless this time?

When I check the result just now, I was shock to see my student ID on the supplementary list. Unbelievable. My friend was with me to check the result. I can't seems to find my words to answer him when he asked me whether I pass or not. All of a sudden, I'm speechless. It took me a few minutes to find my words to answer him. The moment I reply him, tears rolled down from my eyes. I started crying. The first time I cried at campus. Luckily, there was not much people there; only my 2 best friends and me.

Supp was like a black spot on a piece of white paper to me. It's hard to erase. Even though you did manage to erase it , the paper has become imperfect. You'll still notice the mark on the paper. My academic has had a uneraseable spot......

Final tomorrow...

OMGosh, my final is tomorrow. There's still 9 hours left for me to gambateh. I'm having an 'exam fever' now. Not sick. It's a mix feeling of worried, scared, depress and sad. All of a sudden, I miss home very much....miss my mummy's dishes...miss my cat....and most of all everything at hometown. My aunt and her daughter went back to my hometown ( which is also hers ) for "Qing Ming" early morning yesterday. This add up my level of missing home. Trying to cope with it. Focus on final now. God Bless Me. Thanks.

Wonderful weekend

Last saturday, my cousin and I went to our aunt's house for a short stay. She just came here to study. So, I showed her the way to aunt's house. Moreover, I'm also free coz my test is over. It's so good to be at a place which make you feel like you're at home. The moment I arrived at my aunt's house I feel so relax. All those tiredness seems to gone by itself. We have lots of fun with my aunt's children. We played online games together and went out for dinner. Finally, I get to buy the shirt I've been longing for. Felt so happy about it. Haha.

Life busy or busy life

I've been busy since last week. Kept having test after one another. When can I have a break? I having 3 tests this week. Yo~ I feel like going to collapse. Getting busy and busier each week. Assignment is going to due. Help~

Unhappy day

I din manage to do finish the test paper for life contingiencies today. That lecturer only gave us half an hour to finish it. There was 4 questions with many sub-questions. Chapter 3 is the most easiest chapter among all the chapters. I was planning to score on this chapter. But, who knows?! The lecturer was so insist to collect the test paper when time's up even though we pleaded for another extra few minutes. Although most of us didn't manage to finish it on time, I still feel sad about it. Another thing is the macroeconomic test today. I have 2 tests today. I made a careless mistake on the calculation. Haiz....guess lucky star din come today? Huhu.....

Day 3 of CNY

I enjoy myself so much on this day. My ex-classmates are having a house-to-house visiting or called "tuan bai". I get to see most of my ex-classmates. So happy. Things are even merrier when there was kid around. One my friend brought her son along which made our "tuan bai" even more merrier. Her son was so cute and adorable. To my surprise, he was very obedient and yet he was only 2 years old! It's true. Most of the kids of his age would be very naughty and playful. When they come to your house , they would jump here and there, touch your things. In short, very annoying. But, my friend's child was so different. When someone gave him something, he would thanked you automatically. Unlike most of the kids who have to wait for her mum to tell them what to do and would sometimes ignore it. Due to his good behaviour, he caught the heart of everyone he met during the "tuan bai". He gave us so much laughter during our "tuan bai". It was a memorial day.

Feelings of mine....

It's already been 2 semesters. The feelings remain the same. You're still deep inside my heart. Each time I saw you at campus, my heart tends to beat faster. I can't even control. I become quiet when I saw you. Yesterday, you suddenly appeared when I was having lunch at the stall behind the back gate. I was glad to see you. I wish to help you with the assignments when you asked who knows how to do. I just wanna help you do something.....

I really wanna let you know my feelings for you. I wanna know how you feel about me. But, I'm scared about your reactions. I miss watching movie with you, miss chatting with you, miss your caring when you know I'm hurt, miss you...........

Miserable

There seems to be a weird feeling in heart which I couldn't describe. Sad? Worried? Eager? Waiting? Scared? Hoping? I just couldn't identify what kind of feeling it is. Sigh~ I'm blur about my future. I'm not prepare to face the world of business yet. All this years, the world I'm facing is books and the happy moments with friends. Next year, I'm going to graduate and after that I'm going my own path. In other words, everyone is going seperate ways after graduation. When I think of this, the weird feeling is back. Sigh~ Actually, I should be clear about what I want in the future. I mean my goal. But, the people around me 'shaking' my mind. I'm lost. All this while, I don't wanna admit the fact that I'm Can't Stand To Lose no matter in what area. We called this kind of habit as 'KiaSu' . I just hate it yet I'm one of it. Ugh~

Second chance

It been a tired and tough week. Assignments really need a lot of brainstorming espeacially assignment that requires you to write a program. I've been having uncomfortable sleep lately. So so so tired. I've already had overwhelming pressure due to assignment. Then, there's another thing which add up my pressure again,that is, the offend from coursemates. There are 4 groups in my course. The group I dislike most is the last group!!! They are selfish yet likes to criticise other people. Hey, don't think you guys are SO PERFECT!!! You guys don't have the authority to judge other people.

However, there's a news which reduce my uneasiness. My business law lecture decided to give us a second chance. I'm going to have a re-test of my mid-term exam this saturday. Although I pass my previous mid-term, I'm not so satisfied with the mark. Besides that, it's also a chance for those who fail the test. Therefore, I'm going to study hard for it in order to get a much more better mark. Gambateh~

1st day of class

Time seems to fly very fast. Now, I'm in Year 2 Sem 2 which is my short sem. It is a 7-week study. There are 3 subjects, i.e, business law, statistical simulation and pendidikan moral. After gone through the book of business law, I find that studying law is not an easy job. What I study maybe is just 1/3 of the law students. No wonder my friend have to sutdy until dawn. Coz you have to memorise all those act or section no wat. Wah~ tough job. Must have a good brain. Haha.. My class for tomorrow is pendidikan moral. My friend told me that it's different from secondary. Wait till tomorrow and see.

Meaningless

I MISS YOU!!!! Miss chatting with you! Each time when I'm online, I wish to see you online but you didn't. Where have you been? You went back hometown too? How long? For the whole 3 months? When are you coming back to pj? These are all the questions that are in my mind now. Msn means nothing to me without you. The only person I want to chat with is YOU! I will be back to PJ soon. I hope to see you online by that time. I feel so meaningless without you.... no mood for everything....

Days without internet

Err.... when will I be able to online? I wonder what went wrong. Since the thunder night ( last friday ), I can't be able to access the net until today. Now, I'm using the office computer to post. Hai.....days without internet really makes my life very dull. I find that I really can't live without internet. It's been almost 4 days I can't access the net. I already called the technician which is my mom's friend's son but he said he can only help me check by tomorrow (wed). Aiyo~ quickly come fix my internet la..... I wanna online. I wanna chat with HIM!! I miss HIM so much!!!

Holidays

Yeah~ finally, can enjoy my holidays. Just finish my last paper today. Feel so relieved after 2 weeks of exam. Today is also Mooncake Festival. Therefore, after the test, my friends and I went to pizza hut. We order quite a lot of food coz we were so hungry. It was a 3 hours test. So, by the time we finished the paper, it was already 12pm. Our stomach are 'ringing'. Haha.... We ate like a hungry dog. We ordered a set of pizza which was for 6 persons ( but we only have 5 people ) and we add on a plate of fries and a bowl of salad. All of us were bloated after finished eating. Guess what we did after that?!

Caption: The pink shirt is me. Haha...

This is what we did. The craziest thing that I ever do. We were posting in front of a super duper big burger poster with passers-by kept staring at us with a curious gesture. Haha.... They must have thought that we were crazy. Nevermind. After all, we were just youngsters. We won't have the chance to do such things when we get older. Haha... Besides that, we just wanna relieved all the stress. Hehe... After a whole noon of playing and shopping around the mall, we went home at around 5.30pm. What an enjoyable day!!!

Can't wait to relax

Still left 2 days and I'm free!!! One more test to go... but I'm so confused. I can't wait to relax and on the other hand, I don't feel like having holiday so soon coz I can't see him. He is going to have a 3-month holiday while I'm going to have a 3-week holiday. I dunno will he be staying at PJ or not. He said he wanna find a job. If he gets a job here, then he will be able to online and we can chat coz his computer is at PJ. Hopefully he finds a job here. I don't wanna lose contact with him. Sometimes, my six sense told me that we are meant for each other, juz waiting for the right time. I'm trying to work things out, like being close to him, keep him happy etc. I even try to create another outting for us since the last time we went to watch movie. His birthday is coming and I hope we can go out again. I wonder will he said ' yes ' if I asked him for bowling next tues. Lucky star, pls be with me. Luv u!!

What should I do?

His birthday is coming. Next wed is his birthday. Should I give him a surprise party? Deep inside my heart, I really really hope to give him a memorial birthday party. I wish to celebrate his 21st birthday. Or should I just buy a birthday present for him? I'm thinking of asking a few of his close friends to celebrate his birthday next week since my test will finish by next tuesday. I'm planning to tell him that we are going to celebrate the end of test which, on the other hand, is celebrating his birthday. But, I'm so doubtful. What if his close friend ( who is also my coursemate ) wasn't free ? What if he doesn't wanna join us? What is the best way of asking? I wanna see him before I go back to my hometown for my holidays. Should I asked them now or this weekend? Everyone is busy with test now. Can someone give me advice??

SuRpRiSe

There's so many things in my mind now. I don't know how to start. I keep reading the first two sentences over and over again coz there's really too much things I want to say. I'm so happy, so delighted, so touch , and most of all so many wonderful feelings in my heart. I really had a memorable birthday celebration this year. Miracle does happened. Almost all my wishes come true. First and foremost, I was so surprise yet delighted to receive your sms at exactly 12 midnight on 26 August where the day was just about to dawn. I never thought that you would give me such a surprise. I was just thinking that maybe you would just wish me through friendster by sending a simple 'Happy Birthday' greeting. Do you know how joyful I was at that moment?! I hope you could sense it through the reply msg. Well, I thought that this is the only surprise I would get from you. Who knows?! You gave me another greater surprise. You...appeared...last...night together with a present in your hand!!!! ( on the restaurant where I had my celebration ) I thought that you wouldn't be there coz you told me that you have a family gathering that night. But, you purposely come to hand me the gift and wish me a happy birthday.Even though you were there for a while only, I was so touched. I smile broadly the moment I saw you. I can't believe it. I thought I was dreaming. How I wish that moment could last longer a bit..... so that I could see you longer a bit and most of all take more pictures with YOU!! The only and most suitable word to decribe my feeling when I saw you last night was " Bliss". You make me very 'high' (over joy) throughtout the night. Guess what?! I almost wanted to confess my feelings to you (after the celebration). But, I didn't. I still haven't had the courage...

Caption: This is the present he gave me. I like it very much. ^^

Not just friends

How I wish to tell you that I don't want to be just your friend but an intimate friend instead. Last night is the second time you sent me home. I was so happy. I wish I could go to your apartment again to do assignments. I wonder will you remember me after we graduate although there's two years to go. Anything could happened within those two years. I really really hope I could stay in your heart forever no matter as friends or chat pal. I'm so scare of thinking about graduating now... I don't want that day to come. Can we be more than friends??

Stormy Week

Getting closer to the 'stormy week' which means getting closer to overwhelming stress. Why? This is because there are 3 tests, 2 assignments to hand in and a presentation next week. Huh~ Going to be the busiest week ever. Gambateh to me~

Busy

This week has been a busy week for me. I have been burning the midnight oil for the past two nights cos preparing for my speech and the power point. It going to be a 'big day' for me tomorrow cos it my presentation day for public speaking. Kinda nervous about it cos have to stand in front talk and talk although for few minutes only. Just not used to it. My lecturer told me to practice in front of the mirror to reduce the nervousness. So, i give it a try. Hope I can do well tomorrow. :)