Depression

Since I came KL to study, I felt that I have become more depressed. There's less smile on my face than when I was at my hometown. It's been a year since I'm here. I was accompanied by my parent when I came here study on May last year. They came here for a week only to help me settled down my things. When my parent went back to hometown, I cried at the airport because this is the first time I'm away from my parent for so long. Scared, worried-ness, loneliness haunts me. Although I have an aunt living here, I knew that I can't rely too much on her because she has her own family too. After my parent went back, I started moving into my hostel which is Millennium Court (MC) because I was staying at my aunt's house the whole week. I thought that my hostel was going to be like an apartment but I was WRONG! It was a small, claustrophobic triple-sharing room and I have to stay there for at least 6 months due to the agreement that I've signed earlier. There's also single and double-sharing room available with different rental. Regret crossed my mind when I saw the room but there was nothing I can do. So, after staying there for 6 months, I checked out and moved into the place where I stay now.

During my stay at MC, I was so so so down. I cried on the first night cos I have no friends and I was homesick. I was so panic about how to go to campus the next morning. Moreover, I don't have the timetable of my classes. So, I called my mum and told her about my situation. I don't know that my mum will called my aunt until I heard a knocked on my door and I opened it to see a girl introducing herself as my aunt's friend's daughter and she already knew my problem. Then, I knew that my mum have seek helped from my aunt. The girl is also studying in UTAR ( the same campus as mine). But, she is in Year 2. So, she consoled me and said that she will accompany me to campus the next day. I felt lucky to have her. If not, I would have insomnia.....

The following days, weeks at MC was much better cos I knew my roommates more and have new friends who is also staying at MC. However, sometimes I would also felt depressed and miserable due to studies and the suffocating room. I can't stand staying in a small room because I've used to big room. Small room makes me feel like I'm enclosed and have limited space to move around. I just can't stand it!! I'm the type of person who will get panic or worried easily even though it's a small problem. I think that the number of times I cried here is more than the number of times I cried at home. Even now (not in MC anymore) I would also feel depressed or sad all of a sudden, without any reason. *Sigh* I wonder what's going into me these days.... Am I in depression? Who can tell me how to do? So hopeless....so torturing....

Caption: This is the picture of the room in MC. All rooms are the same size.

Addicted

I've been addicted.... What addicted me?? I'm addicted to the computer, addicted to Padini, and addicted to blogging. I find that blogging is a good way to release whatever that is in your heart. Sometimes, it's hard to express. So, writing it down is a better way.

Recently, there are so many things in my mind. I wanna talk to my soul-mate but I dunno where to start. There's too many things.... like assignments, tests, and ....relationship. Relationship----a sensitive word to me; a word that will made me go crazy...made me sad...remind me of the pain and thinking of someone.... Someone who has walk in to my heart whether direct or indirectly. I'm so confused.

Mr Bean Jokes (2)

Mr Bean while in grade school

Teacher: What is 5 plus 4?

Mr. Bean: 9

Teacher: What is 4 plus 5?

Mr. Bean: Are you trying to fool me, you've just twisted the figure, the answer is 6!!

Life (2)...

Life is sweeter when.....
1. you get to take an autograph of your favourite artist
2. pretty red roses are delivered to your doorstep by someone special...
3. you get to finish your assignments way before deadline. This gives you more time to relax.

4. your friends throw you a birthday party by surprise and you received lots of wishes and

as well. I always love it.

5. you know that you have pass with flying colours.

6. you finally own a car of your own. I wonder when can I own my dream car...

7. someone you admired tell you that he/her love you.

8. your boss praise you on your successful job.

9. mummy cook your favourite dishes.

10. you get to travel around the world with your loved ones. I wish I could travel once a year

when I graduate.

Life is even more sweeter when..... the world is Peace!!

Satisfy 3

I get happy each time I saw the number of readers increase in my blog. I'm also glad to receive comments from all of you because it will help me improve my blog and know more. :) Hope you guys will keep supporting me... Hehe... Happy reading...

Life (1).....

It's my life......... sang by Bon Jovi. Guess most of you have heard of this song. What's life about actually? How to live one's life to the fullest? How can we make our life more meaningful, more interesting? The routine you do everyday is eat-work-sleep. How can we change it?

As I grew up, I keep having more and more questions on life. My daily rountines are study-eat-revision-goodnight. There's also playing times sometimes. But, I want a more meaningful and colourful life. I want every minutes to be worth it. However, I'm always running out of time due to study. The course I'm taking used up most of my time since it's a tough course. There's lot of calculations needed. Other than weekdays, I have to spend most of my time doing revision on weekends too where everyone goes shopping, playing or just simply staying at home --- relaxing. I find that this type of life kinda null... I'm beginning to have less and less time to relax compare to my life when I was in Year One Semester One (Year 2 Semester 1 currently) , such as watching movie, shopping and even sleeping. Huh~

Unlike me, some of my coursemates seems so relax. It's like everyday is a holiday to them. For instance, my housemate who is also my coursemate seems so free. He seldom attend classes and yet his results are good. All those subjects are so fresh. We don't even study before in school. He still have the courage to skip classes. Sometimes, I wish I could exchange identity with one of them...

I wonder how's other people life is.... Are you satisfied with your life?

All sorts of people

Recently, I got a funny email from my friend. It's about macam-macam orang!!.... So, I opened it and I got this...

I wonder is the river bank crowded with fisher. Why is the old man fishing there? Or because of his age? Hmm....

So big the hole..... I also can win many times la... Wait... Izzit there's another small hole inside the big hole? So, you need to aim correctly? haha....

Aren't you scared of getting lung cancer? Or there's no hole behind? Take care~

I wonder how's the taste? Is it different from the packet of milk that we purchase? Anyway, I don't like milk.

After seeing this mail, there's really lots of wierd people doing weird things everyday. That's life....

Mr. Bean Jokes (1)

Brain Tumor

Doctor: I'm sorry to tell you that you have a brain tumor.

Mr. Bean: Yesss!!! (jumps in joy)

Doctor: Did you understand what I just told you?

Mr. Bean: Yes of course, do you think I'm dumb?

Doctor: Then why are you so happy??

Mr. Bean: Because that proves that I have a brain!

Sometimes

Sometimes....
when you want to cry...
no one is there for you....

Sometimes.....
when you are sick...
no one notice about it....

Sometimes...
when you are worried....
no one knows your stress.....

Sometimes....
when you are lonely...
no one is there to accompany .....

Sometimes.....
when you want to watch movie....
no one is free....

But,
all those are just sometimes only.
Haha....

Satisfy 2

Finally, I'm beginning to understand what is chapter 1 of Probability & Statistic . I've been doing the assignment and tutorial for a long time...keep thinking for the solution of the problem until my brain wanna burst. It's a tough subject. Still got lots more to study about it... I will gambateh for it ......

When Coka Cola meet Mentos

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2. Mentos has been put into the cola.

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This is what will happen to your body if you take cola and mentos together. So, it is advice that try to avoid eating sweets and soft drinks together espeacially cola.

Satisfy 1

I've been updating my blog for more than 3 hours. The more I modify my blog, the more I'm satisfy with it. Haha.... I like this type of feeling. It's like you have changed something which look normal into a very special thing....like you have success in changing it to look different. Hehe...

Playful yet lazy cats, but I love them

Meow...meow...meow....its calling each time when it saw me or it's dinner time. I have 3 cats in my home. I'm a cat lover since I was a child. I remember there's a time when my mum wants to give my cats away, I cried. Guess what?! Of course, she didn't do so and never will after that. Haha... However, my aunt doesn't like cats because she thinks that cats are lazy , dirty and like to mess around like playing with the slippers, flower etc. Whenever my aunt saw the cat playing with the slippers, she will scold it and at the mean time chase it away. My cats have the habit of sleeping on the shoes or slippers. I couldn't figure it out why it likes to sleep on shoes or slippers. The most curious thing is my cat knew which one is my slipper and....will usually sleep on mine! It seldom laid on other people shoes. But I won't mind about it neither my parents nor my eldest aunt will. It's just my second aunt will be mad about it when she saw it. Hehe... But one thing I will stop my cats from doing is walking into the house. I will make sure my cats are in the garden.

Caption: Sleeping on my slipper again.

Well, I think that cats can be consider as 'clean animal ' compare to other animals. It likes to clean its fur most of the time by licking (this what my cats do most of the time). Besides that, cats will dig a hole each time when they want to do their "small thing" or " big thing" and then bury it up when they are finish ( this is also what my cats do and I also saw some other cats do so ). But, I don't think dogs will do so. If not, there won't be so many 'shits' on the pavements, grass or even beside your car tire. What do you think?

Heart of greed

Heart of greed is a 40 episodes hong kong drama. It is an interesting cum exciting drama and tells how cunning a human can be when dealing with money. It also teaches us not to judge a book by its cover. You'll never know when your close friend or family member will give you a back-stab when it comes to money or even relationship. Thus, we should always be alert.

Ha Yu who played as an abalone speacialist named Tong Yan Gai and has two wives with 4 children. He owns a chinese dried-seafoods store speacialising in abalones which later expanded into several chain stores after years.

I like the role of Lee Sze Kei in this drama. She is the actual wife of Tong and is a smart person. Whenever there is a crisis in the family, she can handle it smoothly. I think that the director has chose the right person to act this role. Lee Sze Kei has the characteristic that the director wanted, I felt.

Sussana Kwan is the mistress of Tong and has a son. She is a greedy and black-hearted person who keep making problems to the family. Whereas Bosco Wong is the eldest son of Lee Sze Kei in the drama. Other co-actors and actresses in the drama are Moses Chan Ho, Chris Lai, Raymond Lam, Yoyo Mung, Michelle Mai, Linda Chung and Fala Chan.

Below are some of the scenes from the drama:

1.caption: Mosses playing saxaphone on Bosco's wedding.

2. caption: Sussana is making trouble
To know more of the story, quickly go watch it. :)

A small incident

After class, I went to buy some daily groceries with two of my housemates. The place was just a stone throw away from my campus. So, we walk there. After finish buying, it started to rain. So, we quickly walk to the nearest bus stop. Luckily, we were just in time to board the bus. Normally, when I ride a bus, I would start thinking, wondering or surveying the people and the building around me. I would wonder where are these people from and what are they doing in this country or why are they here. I would keep thinking until I reach my destination. It's kinda interesting thing, I feel. When I was wondering about in the bus today, I saw a blind man boarded the bus. At first, I didn't notice him because the bus was crowded with passengers since it was a peek hours and I couldn't see anyone was boarding since there were people standing in front of me. I started to realise when the lady sitting beside me stand up suddenly. Then, I saw the blind man was boarding the bus and she was giving her seat to him. At that moment, I feel that there are still love and care among able people and the disable people. This is the first time I saw such incident. All this while, I thought that KL people are mostly materialistic , calculative and think highly of themselves. They also seems to forget the meaning of Courtesy! But this incident make me realise that there are still care in people. I'm very proud of it because they use what they are taught whether formally or unformally. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

Environment changes you and me

Is the picture beautiful? I saw it while surving the net. Sometimes espeacially during rainy day, sitting by the window with the cold wind breezing towards me, I would think about how unique or powerful is the environment; how deep is the affect/effect of the environment on us. Without It, we wouldn't have exist. In other words, we need environment to survive. It has all the conditions that we need. What is environment anyway? Well, I'm sure all of you have your own definition. The most basic things in an environment are water, sun, soil , air and nature. Environment could be anywhere. It could be big or small depends on where you are. If you are in a big place, then your environment is wide and vice versa.

Did you ever notice that the changes in you are often affect by the environment? Recently, I have this strong feeling that I'm changing whether is according to the environment that I'm in or not. Maybe because I'm away from home, so I need to suit myself with the surroundings around me. Or maybe I'm starting to get mature. I tend to think about other peoples feeling when doing something. I will think that if any of my action or words will hurt them accidentally. Therefore, I'm kinda careful with my words sometimes. Depends on what kind of person I'm with. I never have such strong feeling of changes in myself before. Are this sign of mature? Or am I being too sensitive? Anyway, I know that environment/surrondings make people to change themselves. When we are in an uncomfortable place, we act differently. For example, being quiet most of the time and talk only when neccesary or being secure throughout the time. In conclusion, we are changing all the time/ throughout our lifetime.

*Pls state your opinion if possible. Thanks. :)